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I Have A Craving

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I have a craving.

I’ve been craving it for a few years now. It’s kind of like a craving I have for chocolate, Peanut Butter Captain Crunch (childhood fave) or a good cup of coffee but it’s a craving that is not so easily satisfied. I can’t just go to the store and pick this up.

I’m craving easy.

easy button

Seems living in a foreign country for four years where everything goes against all the familiar you’ve ever known is not easy.

Seems relationships are not always.. rarely… never… easy.

Seems transitioning back into the familiar that I hoped would be easy, even after almost 2 years… is not easy.

Seems that life milestones and the mental shifts those involve are not easy.

The list goes on and on…

When we moved back to Texas from Singapore we immediately got busy. Really busy. We got a puppy. We did some much-needed renovation on our house, we pulled off a very hands-on and wonderful wedding for our oldest daughter and enjoyed the holiday season. We did all of those and lived to tell the stories but so much was put on the back burner. Out of necessity but still.

January hits. About 6 months later. The busy stops. The transition hits. The brain has time to process all those feelings that have been shoved aside. It’s hard.

Fast forward a few months and another move to a different house with more renovations, we’re blessed with our first grandson, our son gets engaged, graduates from college and brings a wonderful daughter in love to our family. Our youngest daughter starts learning how to drive, more holidays (It’s crazy how they come around every year!), added another dog of the rescue kind with lots of needs, toss in the wonderfulness (insert sarcasm) of aging and all the fun stuff (insert sarcasm) that comes along with it for us and our parents and thinking through how to do life with an empty nest because that is coming at us like an unrelenting freight train.

Living in a foreign country for 4 years was hard. Not all bad. But hard.

Relationships are hard. The keeping and the losing of them.

Transitioning back into our home country is hard.

Life milestones are hard. Not all bad. But hard. 20,000 of them over the span of a 1.5 years, though… that’s hard!

Seems there is no easy button. I know, I know… this is old news, but it helps me to write it out.

Life is hard.

No one ever said life is easy. Not even Jesus got easy.

But oh, how we long for easy. We love easy. We crave easy.

But easy is just not realistic.

In fact, Jesus said that we are assured to have trouble in this world.

“I’ve told you all this so that trusting me, you will be unshakable and assured, deeply at peace. In this godless world you will continue to experience difficulties. But take heart! I’ve conquered the world.” John 16:33 The Message

Being unshakeable assured and deeply at peace sounds amazing about now!

On my/our quest for easy, let’s at least not do stuff that adds to the hard.

Live well. Love well. Rest easy…


About Andrea

A stumbling pilgrim and gatherer and sharer of stories. Let's walk intentionally to hope.

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